నాలో ఎప్పట్నుంచో మండుతున్న జ్వాల ఈ రోజు నా తమ్ముడితో సంబాషణలో (chatting) ఇలా బయట పడింది.
నా తమ్ముడికి తెలుగు ఫొంత్ లేక పొవటం వల్ల ఎంగ్లిష్ లోనే మా సంబాషణ నడిచింది.
8:05 AM Dileep: Hi anna how r u?
8:06 AM me: good. how are you?
did anna left?
Dileep: yester day we are on the way thats way not able to lift ur call
me: oh ok
8:07 AM Dileep: today morning he reached kadapa
8:08 AM Dileep: how is pradam ,pranathi and vadina
8:09 AM me: all are doing well
8:10 AM me: are you joining ITC?
is any date fixed?
8:12 AM Dileep: not yet that HR went to kolkata..
not yet decided
8:13 AM me: ok
8:16 AM Dileep: when ur friend coming..
8:24 AM me: He is already in India
another colleague coming on 26th
8:31 AM Dileep: to US
me: after a month
I will let you know later
–some private topic –
8:53 AM we got some fund from GOV to constuct a home in village..
do u know that one..
8:54 AM me: how do I know if you don’t tell me?
Dileep: present home fully damaged i mean when rain came thats like out side
me: I am not aware of any progress about that
8:55 AM even I don’t know that there is home now
how did you get funds from Gov?
8:56 AM Dileep: thats In INDIRAMMA pathakam
for poor people..
in that they had sanctioned for us also
8:57 AM Indiramma pathakam for poor people who ever they don’t have shelter
8:58 AM not yet started..
me: I hate that idea
do you think we are poor people?
but they have given..
me: why should we get money under INDIRAMMA padhakam?
8:59 AM Dileep: i too don’t know
me: without an application from ourside they given that?
Dileep: yesterday i had called to home so they have told me
me: who applied for that?
howmuch they sanctioned?
9:00 AM Dileep: no need to apply.. they only filedup
all are poltics..
me: we talk about so much corruption in the govt and politicians.. but we ourselves are big corrupt people
Dileep: MLA is faver to our village naa
me: may be in that process they ate some !!
9:01 AM mmm
no one can save it
Dileep: so they had given to every one..
me: MLA manavadu CM mana jilla vadu. anduku adakkapOyinA annam pedatAru
9:02 AM Dileep: yes..
me: when you said they sanctioned money.. I thought differently
you were telling me that ANNA wants to open some charitable society
9:03 AM for old age people
and want to build a home for them at our fields
I thought may be ANNA did that and govt sanctioned some fund to do that
9:04 AM Dileep: mmm they will not give money that type of works
after starting they will help on basiss of performence..
9:05 AM me: I know..thats why I was so surprised and thrilled
Is anna doing putting any efforts in that direction?
Dileep: he has thoughts..
9:06 AM me: for Pradham birthday on July 26th I want to do something useful
Dileep: but not yet trying to implement..
me: do you have any suggestions?
9:07 AM Dileep: ok..
9:08 AM good idea
if u also think abt that old age home and plan for that
9:09 AM thats better.. to start
me: yes.. I have strong ambitions in doing some service to poor people
9:10 AM howmuch govt santioned for our home?
Dileep: last time when i went to village that time i had given money to Ramaiah bharya, and for some others..
me: it needs so much money and continued support on long run
9:11 AM they may saction 40k
i think thats not helping thing for them
me: I feel very sad when I think about people such as Ramaiah barya
9:12 AM Dileep: at this stage they are not able to prepare food
they are in feeding stage..
me: that is what I feel bad..
there should be some place where they can eat and take some rest at this age
Dileep: but still they are doing hard work … so when do they feel hapy in their life!
9:13 AM me: and how is her home?
is it livable?
Dileep: fully damaged..
in village no one help to them ..
9:14 AM she herself bringing her drinking water from the borewell and cooking herself ..
Dileep: if she prepares food that day ok other wise she should stay with out food..
me: I couldn’t control my tears when I hear this
9:15 AM howmany such people are there in our village now?
Dileep: yes i think every village has such people..
9:16 AM me: as long as we are not aware of such people we don’t know
Dileep: so if we cannot help all… who should help atleast that we know thats better
me: but how can we live peacefully keeping such helpless people infront of our eyes?
9:17 AM Dileep: for them (in village ) it is routine..
thats why I am sending some money for them..
9:18 AM two months back i have send 500 for her..
and last time when i went to village i had given 700 for pedamma and others..
me: good. you are lucky to be among those and be able to help
9:19 AM then we need to do something fast to help such people
Dileep: i will send next month starting also
but thats not making them happy..
9:20 AM when they will get food and rest with out big effort they may feel happy
me: can we have some temporary shelter for them and someone who can cook for them and feed
9:21 AM next time when you go to village can you think seriously about this
ask if someone can come forward to cook everyday for such people
9:22 AM we will pay money as monthly salary for them
Dileep: yes… i think u remember yarrani Obaiah(Gulolla Obaiah) his daughter also now helpless.. her father and mom died
so she also not able to do work..
9:23 AM she can cook and serve..
me: she is young right?
Dileep: no need to pay some people they can’t do cultivation work so they will do these things..
9:24 AM yes.. but she can’t do cultivation work
me: ok. let us start with something then..
talk to her next time you go to village..
9:25 AM me: talk to peddamma and other such people if it is OK for them for such an arrangement
Dileep: we will start on pradam birth day
Dileep: but we need a home for that..
9:26 AM i will enquire for that..
me: lets start cooking at one place and feed them every day like in hotel..
in any one of their home
me: slowly we can build something
9:27 AM Dileep: some of my friends also ready to help that type of people..
me: and also I think our old home place was nice to construct something
yes. here also so many people are ready.. but they need to trust us .. thats it
Dileep: brother plan is different..
me: what is his plan?
9:29 AM Dileep: he thinking abt their peace of environment also
9:30 AM vurlo kakunda saparetuga antee mana thotalo allaa saparetugaa vuntee vallaku prasanthanga kuda vuntundigada antadu
9:32 AM me: I doubt about it.
Dileep: any way first we will start it with food ..
me: their entire life they spent among people.. and they may like to spend among people only at this age also
Dileep: then step by step we will reach the goal
9:33 AM me: right. let us start with food. then we can take to self-sufficiancy etc..
Dileep: thats also right..
at present no one is there to talk.. in village
almost they are spending solo life only…
me: for us educated one, we know the beauty of nature .. but I doubt that they can enjoy it
9:35 AM and again.. for those who don’t have some thing to eat and for those who doesn’t have energy to cook by themselves..peace is in having little bit to their stomoch
9:36 AM Dileep: s
9:37 AM u know one swami(mukku swami) like that people there…
me: and I will talk to Anna also about this
how is he?
how is he getting his food?
Dileep: now he is ok..
9:38 AM he got leg facture three months back..
that time so bad..
9:39 AM doctors told him don’t take rice.. so only chapathi like that (bc he have sugger) so no one preparing for him..
so he lives like a begger..
9:40 AM many times he come to our home and had that one..
me: right. no one prepares chapati right
9:41 AM I am becoming so emotional..and could not stop weeping….luckily no one is here nearby. I don’t know how can I control it next time I visit the village
9:42 AM very difficult..
me: who is cooking meals for school children?
Dileep: whenever we go to village..
in SC also have like Rammaiah bharya that people
9:43 AM Saraswathi..
me: we should not discriminate based on caste
thats why am telling we should help them..
9:44 AM me: but I doubt these old people can eat along with SC people..
Dileep: thats may be a problem..
we should convey them..
me: let us start doing some thing on our own..even we fail in our efforts..we will learn some lesson
9:45 AM Dileep: s
u don’t tell to dad ..
me: may be it is too much to convey them at this stage.. let them live with their habits and biliefs in their last days..we can serve them seperately
Dileep: he will discourage
9:46 AM me: why
Dileep: talk with brother or with sister
me: whatever he says.. I am strongly determined to do sometxing
9:47 AM we will start very shortly..
so plan for that..
9:48 AM i will enquire for cooker and all
me: we may need big dishes to cook
9:49 AM before we start we need to know the suggestions from peddamma and other such people
9:50 AM if they refuse to eat like that after all this becomes a waste effort
9:51 AM and it should not become an example for “ఆరంబశూరత్వము” aarambasuratvamu.
9:53 AM Dileep: yes..
9:54 AM definetly 100% they will accept..
bc they are in that stage..
help less sthage..
9:55 AM me: ok
9:56 AM we should not wait for aspicious day to start a good program. let me know when can you go to village and set everything
so I don’t even want to wait till Pradham’s birthday
lets start as soon as possible
9:57 AM Dileep: ok..
9:58 AM first we will talk with peddamma and some others..
i will go soon
just i got call from ITC
they are asking pay slip..
10:14 AM Dileep: just i had talked with brother also
me: oh ok
10:15 AM Dileep: he telling that first u both decide strongly.. before going to start that program
10:17 AM me: my desire is so strong that none can say NO to that
10:18 AM I would like to face all the consequences
10:19 AM what he is telling is ..how much we are busy, how many problems we have whatever may be we should give some time and money for that
10:20 AM to think abt that and to do that
10:21 AM that type of work is the real work to do in anyones life
Dileep: he also interested to do that..
last two days we visited some Asramas here..
10:22 AM we should not have any direct or indirect profit related thoughts about it
and we should not gain any direct or indirect gain out of that
10:23 AM Dileep: yes..
me: then only it will serve the purpose
10:25 AM Dileep: yes..
we are not in that stage to think profit..
poltical leaders or some others think like that
10:26 AM me: yes. but we should not only think about that but we should appear also like that..
me: without peoples trust we cannot succeed
10:27 AM Dileep: some people they shout even we do sincerly .. so we don’t consider all those things..
we should do our best best level
10:28 AM finally god will see
me: making everything transparent is one way to keep trust on us
me: there shouldn’t be any secrecy..
10:29 AM I have registered for a website.. http://www.charasala.com .. may be we can use this to let people know what we are doing
right now there is no content there
10:30 AM see if you can contribute some pages for that
10:32 AM ok annaa
i will go to village soon
before that u too talk with brother..
10:33 AM Dileep: bc he also have much interest on that
me: ok. good. we can make it
Dileep: he also know much abt that type of asramas
finally we will deside..
10:34 AM tomorro we i will make a call to village
i will enquire they are ready for this(with peddama)
10:35 AM anna telling that we need not consider only peddamma we can serve who every like that stage..
definetly she also join..
Dileep: like that
me: but we need to hear their voice also
10:36 AM they may give some more thoughts that we don’t have
me: we need to see the problem from every aspect
10:44 AM me: ok. I will talk to ANNA tomorrow
10:47 AM Dileep: ok..
so what can i do
can i join in that ITC
10:50 AM ok anna.. TC have a nice day
ఇలా సాగింది మా chatting. చూడాలి ఇది ఎంత ముందుకు వెళుతుందో. నాకైతే చాల ఆశ ఉంది బీదవారు, ముసలి వారికి సాయపడలని.
రామయ్య బార్య(పెద్దమ్మ): ఈమె మాకు పెద్దమ్మ వరస. చాలా స్వాభిమానము కలది. మేమెంత పిలిచినా మా యింటికి అన్నము తినటనికి రాదు. తనకు ఇద్దరు పిల్లలు ఉండేవాళ్ళు. కూతురు మీద ఒకరోజు పందిరి కట్టె పది చనిపోయింది. కొడుకు తాగుడుకు బానిసై చనిపోయాడు. కూతురి కూతురు (మనవరాలు) వీళ్ళ దగ్గరే పెరిగి పెళ్ళయ్యాక తనదారిన వెళ్ళిపోయింది. ఆమె ఇప్పుడు ఇటువైపు రావటం లేదు. బహుశా ఆమె పరిస్తితి కూడా కడు ధీనంగా ఉండిఉండవచ్చు. తన భర్త చనిపోయేనాటికే ఆమెకి అరవై అరవైదు వయసుంటుంది. ఇది జరిగి పదిహేనేళ్ళు అవుతుంటుంది. ఇప్పుడామె స్వయంగా ఏపనీ చేసుకోలేని వయసులో కూడా అన్నీ తనే చేసుకుంటూ భారమైన జీవితాన్ని గడుపుతోంది. ఈమె ఒక ఉదాహరణ మాత్రమే. ఇలాంటి వారు కనీసం నలుగురైదుగురు ఉన్నారు మా ఊర్లో.
ముక్కుస్వామి: ఈయన మేము చిన్న వయసులో ఉన్నప్పుడు మా ఊరొచ్చాడు. అప్పుడు బాగా యవ్వనంలో ఉండేవాడు. బార్యా పిల్లలు ఎవరూ లేరు. తనదేవూరో ఎక్కడినుండీ వచ్చాడో ఎవరికీ చెప్పడు. ఇప్పుడు కూడా చెప్పడు. అతని తెలుగు యాస కూడా చాల భిన్నంగా ఉంటుంది. జీర్ణమైన ఆలయాల ఉద్దరణే తన ఏకైక కార్యంగా భావిస్తాడు. అప్పుడు మా ఊరి చెరువుగట్టున ఉన్న పురాతన శివాలయం కడు దయనీయ స్థితిలో ఉంది. చుట్టూ కంప మొక్కలు పెరిగి, తలుపు చెక్కలకు చెదలు పట్టీ, పార్వతి విగ్రహాపు మొలకు చిన్న నూలుపోగైనా లేకుండా… అలాంటి దేవాలయాన్ని మాలాంటి ప్రాధమిక పాఠశాల పిల్లల్ని వెంటపెట్టుకుని కంపని కొట్టించి, గడ్డి పీకించి, పేడతో అలికించి దాన్ని ఒక దశకు తెచ్చాడు.
ఊరి వారికి కూడా అతని పట్టుదల చూసి శివరాత్రికి హరికథ చెప్పించడము మొదలెట్టారు. అలా మానాన్నా కూడా ఎవర్ని చందాలు అడక్కుండా రెండు ఏళ్ళు హరికథలు చెప్పించి బోజనాలు పెట్టించాడు. మా ఊరి చుట్టుపక్కల ఎహ్క్కడా శివాలయమే లేదు. మెల్లమెల్లగా ప్రజలు తమ కష్టాలను దేవుడికి చెప్పుకొటం అందులో కోరికలు తీరిన వారు గుడిని ఇంకొంత అభివృఇద్ది చేయటం జరిగింది. ( మా నాన్న గుదిలోపలి గదుల్లో నున్నటి రాయి పరిపించాడు. మా చెల్లి గిది బయట బండలు పరిపించింది. సుబ్బారెడ్డి అనేతను రాతి ద్వజస్థంబము పెట్టించాడు. ఇంకొకతను గుడిలో గంటలు ఏర్పాటు చేశాడు. అయితే ఈ చైతన్యానికి మూల పురుషుడు ఈ ముక్కుస్వామే. (ఈయన తన పేరు కూడా మాకు చెప్పక పోవటంతో, మొనదేలిన పొడవైన ముక్కు కారణంగా అందరూ ముక్కుసామి అంటారు.)
యర్రాని ఓబయ్య కూతురు: ఈ పిల్ల నాకంటే చిన్నది. వరసకు మరదలు అవుతుంది. ఒక అక్క ఒక అన్న ఉన్నారు. అన్న చిన్నపట్నుంచీ తిరుగుబోతు. ఏ పట్నంలోనో రిక్షాతొక్కి జీవిస్తున్నాడు. అక్కను చిన్నమండెం దగ్గర ఒక ఊర్లో ఇచ్చారు. ఆమెకు ఐదుగురో ఆరుగురో పిల్లలని విన్నాను. తన ప్రపంచం తనది. ఈమె అంత అందగత్తె కాదు. పెళ్ళిచేసుకున్న మొగుడు అతి స్వల్పకాలంలోనే వదిలేశాడు. ఆ దఃఖముతో సగము బీదతనముతో సగము తల్లిదండ్రులు నలుగైదు ఏళ్ళ క్రితము చనిపోయారు. వాళ్ళమ్మకి నేనంటే ఎంతో ప్రేమ. నేను ఊరికి వెళ్ళానని తెలిస్తే తప్పక నన్ను చూట్టానికి వచ్చేది. తల్లిదండ్రులు లేక, అక్క, అన్నలు ఉన్నా పట్టించుకోక (లేదా వాళ్ళ దరిద్రం అడ్డం వచ్చి) దిక్కులేనిదైంది. లోకజ్ఞానం లేని అమాయకురాలు.